Delight and Joy

I have always been really good at finding joy in the little, simple things in life. When I was living in the desert of California, I read a book called One Thousand Gifts* by Ann Voskamp. She challenged readers to write down all of the big and small gifts you run into throughout your day. … Continue reading Delight and Joy

As Soon as You Can

When the fireworks lit the night sky, I missed you beside me.When the conversation flowed today,around topics that remain just out of my reach, I thought first and only of you.When the fireflies danced around me, I wanted you to see it too.When I think about the future, it's your advice I need.When I turn … Continue reading As Soon as You Can

We Will Be Stronger

I started out last week wanting to share a few posts about where I'm at in the novel writing process, a quick sample of my "work in progress," and a post about some wellness related stuff. But then Wednesday, January 6th happened and I didn't feel much like saying anything at all. I don't have … Continue reading We Will Be Stronger

Merry Christmas!

While I am sure I will have more to say on 2020, between the 26th and the 31st, I hope that you have a Merry Christmas - even if it's quiet and not quite like you hoped. It surely isn't for me. I know countless others feel that way too. It has been a hard … Continue reading Merry Christmas!

A Meal Shared

In the late days of spring, when the chill is gone and summer sits right at the gate, quietly whispering its promise, I'll cook a meal, our first to be eaten outside for months. The table will be surrounded by candles and white lights. The flowers I found at the farmer's market gracing the table … Continue reading A Meal Shared

I Don’t Need Much

The greatest wants in my life have never been things, but instead, my greatest want has always been a lasting love & a family - however that family is built. That will be my greatest accomplishment when I leave this world. I’m certain of this. I don’t need much - just him and the life … Continue reading I Don’t Need Much

A Thousand Years

Time will be my best friend orMy greatest enemy. If I fast forward these daysWill you be on the other side?I could love you or wait for you,For a thousand years and neverReach the end of the longing.

Apple Cider Margarita

Here's something you should know about me - I enjoy good food, great cocktails, and wine. I don't cook as often as I would like to these days. I hope to get back to that. Until I do, I figured I'd share some of my favorite cocktails. Apple cider margaritas are a favorite this time … Continue reading Apple Cider Margarita

Risking Your Heart

A few years ago, I had my heart broken pretty badly. My foster son was a pretty good distraction because he moved in shortly thereafter. But that heartbreak made me really leery about relationships & made me even question my ability to trust someone again. I didn’t doubt my ability to love - because I’m … Continue reading Risking Your Heart

Meet me Halfway

I’ve risked it all before,Only to be crushed completely.I found you when I least expected toWhen my heart was tired - incapable ofRisk I once found easy.Meet me halfway –here in the middle.I’m waiting for you here. By Elaina M. Avalos

It Looks Like This

Yesterday, after dropping off Amelia at a middle school she despises, I pulled over on the side of the road and cried. It felt like hours. But was more like ten minutes. I sometimes don't know how to hold them all up - all six of them. Thomas needs me more than ever. The kids, … Continue reading It Looks Like This

Reckless

Now more than ever, I feel this in my soul. I don't have time or space in my life for those that are reckless with my heart. Don't be afraid to cut people off for wasting your time & playing fast & loose with your heart.

My Heart is a Liar

My heart is a liar. Sometimes. Sometimes she's just a little confused. I run through every moment. I relive what has been said, what has been left unspoken, and the little things that mean more to me than they probably should. Someday, when I look back on this time in my life, I know it … Continue reading My Heart is a Liar

This Canyon Between Us

Photo by Mark Neal from Pexels Your words can sting. I don't always know why. Today, they stung. More often than not - you are soulful, profound, and you have this way with words that I adore. But today? Your words were harsh. I still don't know why. I've tried to talk myself out of this. I succeed … Continue reading This Canyon Between Us

NaNOWriMo

Tomorrow kicks off National Novel Writing Month! Did you know there was such a thing? Well . . . there is. And for the last 11 years I’ve started and never finished. This is a thing I do. Start. Not finish. 👎🏼 So, if you read here you know that since about August I’ve been … Continue reading NaNOWriMo

I Miss You Today

I miss you today. I miss you often. Some days hit a little different though. Today it's the sound of your voice and how I feel when you look at me - in that way you do - that I'm missing. The way you look at me always knocks me a little off center. Mostly … Continue reading I Miss You Today