Just Come Over and Lie Here With Me

I feel like I’m a terrible Swiftie right now😂 for being in a John Mayer mood, but whatever. It is what it is. Today, only this guy will do. This song is on repeat.

“Don’t say a word
Just come over and lie here with me
Cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see”

I’m running on caffeine and adrenaline right now. I’ve worked through the weekend and tomorrow is my last 12 hours at my job. I say 12 hours because we have an “event” tomorrow evening. It will be a long day. It is bittersweet to leave. The past 13 years on the job have been such a privilege. I look forward to what comes next. I look forward to living in Virginia again. But leaving something you love is always hard, too. Somehow, John Mayer worked today to keep me on track. 🙂

The Woods

“Reading about nature is fine, but if a person walks in the woods and listens carefully, he can learn more than what is in books, for they speak with the voice of God.” – George Washington Carver

I worked Friday evening and Saturday so I’m enjoying a Monday at home. I woke slowly and walked before doing anything – including having a cup of coffee. The weather is beautiful and coastal Carolina is green and lovely again. The woods always have a way of grounding me.

I grew up in Southern California – which is basically desert. By late spring and definitely summer, the world turned brown. Winter and early spring are the green seasons in SoCal – as the infrequent rains are more frequent in the winter. I love that most of the year here is green and lush. I live next to a river. But it’s also next to a highway and a bridge over that river. In the winter, I see the constant movement on the highway, as headlights can be seen through the woods. When I returned from California recently, the trees were full of leaves. I hardly see any headlights from the highway now. By summer, the less I will see the highway that borders the river and lies beyond the woods. The kudzu, that dies back in the winter, will once again cover the trees with even more green. The growth will increase so much in the next few months, that the river can only be seen from my second story.

Although I love the salt air and the constancy of the ocean. There’s something restorative about the woods. I’m looking forward to spending time amongst the redwood forests, soon.

“I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practise resignation, unless it was quite necessary. I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms…”

— Henry David Thoreau

But, God, I’m praying

“but, God, I’m praying…”

“With no secrets
No obsession
This time I’m speeding with no direction
Without a reason
What is this fire?
Burning slowly
My one and only
Desire
Desire
Desire
Desire

You know me
You don’t mind waiting
You just can’t show me, but God I’m praying
That you’ll find me, and that you’ll see me
That you run and never tire
Desire”
– DRA

My second greatest musical love (David Ryan Adams) is on tour currently. I hope I can see him when he passes through North Carolina in May. But if not, I’ll continue to enjoy every live recording of him singing and playing (that I’ve found over the years).

Like this gem…

The Constant

desmon lost, the constant, LOST,

If you’re new around here, the television show LOST, is my absolute favorite. Today is the 15th anniversary of the season 4, episode 5 – also known as The Constant. I will admit that the bar is low when it comes to TV/movies that entertain me. Hahahaha!! But what I love about LOST is what I view as the writer’s biggest gift to faithful viewers – the characters. People who weren’t huge fans of the show or who may have been infrequent viewers were hyper-focused on the plot. I get it. But as a character-driven writer, I was in love with the show because of the writer’s dedication to the characters and their stories.

The Constant is absolutely my favorite episode of TV (of all times). It was one of the bright spots in six seasons of LOST. And it’s a great TV moment, overall. Here’s a great recap and here’s the moment . . .

How Much Light

I’m a huge Ryan Adams fan. I will always say that his music became a soundtrack for some of the happiest days of my life. He’ll be on tour soon. In April, he has a show in Paris. I cannot even stand the thought. That would be a dream come true. While I wish that I had the cash to make a trip like that, it doesn’t look possible. But it sure is a fun thing to imagine.

His writing is some of my favorite. My random musical taste is all over the place. Some of it I love without any deep tie or love of the lyrics. That is not the case with Adams. I love how he writes. As a writer of fiction, his music inspires me and there isn’t a week that goes by without hearing his music somewhere in my week.

“The way back home’s through the wild and the winds
The way back home’s in your arms
All my life I’ve been searching for someone and
I could never get it right
I could never get it right
I’ve never seen so much light

How much light ’til the ocean tips over and it
Crashes on the beach like its blacker than it’s bluer
Underneath the sun in a cloudless sky
How much light

How much sound ’til my name starts breaking
My hearts all done and it’s yours for the taking
All my life I’ve never seen so much light”
Songwriter: Ryan Adams