Dreams, Faith

Ready for Change

Marianne Williamson, Ft. Macon, Atlantic Beach, Crystal Coast, Beach, Eastern NC

Earlier this year, my health took a hit. I’ve lived with autoimmune disease for a very long time. But something was different this year. Like I can’t get out of bed (but have to because of that whole full-time job business), limping with pain, climbing into bed when I get home from work, different.

My rheumatologist diagnosed me with rheumatoid arthritis, or as many call it, rheumatoid disease. For a definition of what this systemic autoimmune disease is, you can go here. For info on symptoms, you can go here. The bottom line up front? It’s not just achy, creaky joints.

You guys . . .  my butt has been kicked. The only thing tough enough to beat my rear end is . . . my own body. 😉 I pulled the parking break on all sorts of plans for this year until I could start feeling better. We tried one drug. It worked for a bit. And then it stopped.

Tomorrow, I start remicade IV infusions. I’m nervous. I really am. The infusion will take somewhere around three-hours. I’ll take a book, my work laptop, and some music. I have some serious adult onset ADD (haha) so I wanted to have a few things with me if I get bored sitting there.

At the end of the day, in spite of some nerves about side effects, I am praying and hopeful this works. I know that some people go through many different medications before they find what works. I don’t want to deal with that. I am determined. It has to work. Or else. I mean, there’s nothing on the other side of or else 🙂 but still – it has to work.

I have so much to do. I have dreams to fulfill and plans to make. I have adventures to take. I do not have time for this BS. 🙂 I just want it to work. So that’s my prayer. Hoping good things start tomorrow.

How about ya’ll? Is there something in your path right now that holds you back? Or is there something in your path that you’re slowly climbing over to meet your goal or chase your dream? What keeps your head in the game? How do you motivate yourself to keep pushing through?

I would love to hear what you do to keep pressing forward when the days or tough or long or you find yourself facing unexpected challenges.

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