Dreams

Mom – Starting the Foster Care Journey

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There’s just this one thing I want. I want to be a mom. I have always wanted a huge family. Huge. I’ve wanted this as long as I can remember. I don’t think many dream of being a single parent. If you want to be a parent, you see yourself as part of a team – a two-parent household to go with your white picket fence. I’ve said that all before.

Somewhere in there, I decided that parenting a child without a home and family was in the cards for me. I had a plan to make it happen. I may not have dreamed of being a single parent but I know a few things:

  • There are millions of orphans in the world and more than 400,000 in foster care right here in the U.S.
  • My faith says I’m responsible to care for the widow and orphan.
  • I have a roof over my head, money in my checking account, abundant food on the table and empty rooms in my house.
  • There are children right here in Eastern Carolina that want a safe, stable home with at least one parent who will take care of them, love them, put a roof over their head, and give them a “normal” life.
  • I will never forget reading the story of a foster child {in another state} seeking a family to spend her 16th birthday with. I have the love, the means, the desire, the gifts, the patience, and the determination to give a home to kids just like this young lady that just wanted one “normal” moment in her life as an orphan.

I hit a wall in my plan a couple of months ago. I wasn’t sure what to do next. Was I to believe that this was the end? That maybe it wasn’t in the cards for me to be a mom through foster care or foster adopt? It certainly seemed like it at first glance.

I have still struggled through that. But I reached a decision point recently. If all of the above is true, what the hell am I waiting for? As a result, I’m on a mission to make this happen. I will be a foster mom and if the pieces come together, I’ll adopt at some point.

I’ve wasted so much time. At forty, while I’ve got the best years ahead, it’s time to show up for my life.

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